I was baptized and brought up in the Orthodox Christian faith.
    I was taught it in childhood and throughout my boyhood and youth.
    But when I abandoned the second course of the university at the age
    of eighteen I no longer believed any of the things I had been
    taught. Judging by certain memories, I never seriously believed them,
    but had merely relied on what I was taught and on what was
    professed by the grown-up people around me, and that reliance was
    very unstable.